Have you ever heard the name of this guy? He’s just a normal person who travels worldwide for a mission, which is to glorify the name of our Lord. On the 24th day of September, I went to Mandaluyong, Manila just to experience the Holy Spirit through the life of this Man of God. It is truly an unforgettable experience. I still can remember everything, so fresh like it just happened yesterday. My mind is still unable to process the awesome things that my eyes have witnessed, the healing, the miracles, the vision and the presence that I have felt.
Who is Andres Bisonni? It is easy for us to scan his biography and life story in google, so easy to watch him and his events in youtube, but still I have seen the real Andres standing before me, the one which God uses as an instrument to bless other people. What a humble man is he, that he only wants to show the greatness of our Lord Jesus Christ in everybody’s life. What an awesome event with an awesome guy who has an awesome God in his life. Let me share to you some things about this event, which is one of the most important lessons that I have learned as a Christian who feels so blessed everyday.
In the beginning, I had a great expectation about what is gonna happen at this event, I was excited, I wasn’t able to sleep the night before. Then the awaited day has come, we arrived at Victory Ortigas, Level 4, Robinsons Galleria Mall at noon and waited for the hall’s door to be opened. We were nervous, afraid that we might not be able to enter the hall for there were like hundreds of Christians ahead of us. So, we were surprised to see ourselves standing just a few meters away from the stage, shocked and excited, that my companions just started crying and worshipping God. While they start to lie down or experience what we call “tumba fellowship” as the pastors lay hands on them, I was just standing in a corner, praying and feeling so hollow. I was feeling so much condemned for being in that place but feeling nothing at all, like I was thinking “Does my God love me? why does it seems like I don’t feel anything? why not my Father bless me?”. Suddenly, I also started crying, feeling so bad that I can’t feel any presence, I do not feel blessed at all, like the Holy Spirit was not with me and it was the first time that I felt bad while singing my heart out to God. I was sobbing, pouring my tears out and kept asking “why?”.
After all things that had happened, God taught me an important lesson that I should never forget. Worshipping is not for me to be blessed, worship is for God. I went there to glorify His name and not just to feel blessed. The goal is to praise the name of Him and not to be possessed by the power of the Holy Spirit. I was reminded that at the moment when Jesus Christ had died at the cross, I am already blessed and I already got the Holy Spirit with me, being possessed and feeling more blessed are just a bonus and there comes a time when I just have to worship God with all by my heart, because I was made to worship Him ❤
Sabrina Pen 